Mikey Mikey... Eye Candy shmandy. You KNOW I'M hot right?? I was TOO hot for them, I burned up their film
!
ANd I also have this cool buddha like quality to my front side right now, you can even rub it and make a wish! Sometimes I even get a shot to the ribs if you rub right! OW I'm getting punched in the kidneys as we speak- EEK.
Sadly, I DO think Mary was for real. I agree with the whole staged rocker thing- I think he was cuter than he was a great singer, not bad though. Funny I was thinking the exact same thing "INteresting the camera is already there eh? WOO BIG SHOCKER."
I think this REALITY show has gone pretty commercial, but I still can't begrudge them their opinions on cutting me- they have had a good formula so far, and the ratings to prove it! Getting to round 2 on my voice and not a gimmick was my main goal, and anything else was icing on the cake- I got my cake, and I will admit to being disappointed and boo hoo over the "old" issue, I am grateful that no one told me I was awful or ugly or WHATEVER in any negative manner. That was the experience of a lifetime for me, especially now that I am about to have 2 boys to run around after. I am so blessed that i have this to look back on and say "I did that."
I DO have to admit though- I didnt see anyone get cut in round one in SF that was AMAZING- some GOOD singers got cut, but I didnt see anyone get cut that was AWESOME (aside from the truly horrendous for TV)- What i noticed most were people that could have BEEN awesome but lacked a serious amount of control, attempting runs that they never should have. That is actually a pet peeve of mine
- if you cant do it DONT TRY!!!
And I saw 90% of the people auditioning doing just that LOUDLY! This girl in my group at the first round did that- she started off amazing, and she was gorgeous, and then towards her chorus she went into this run that was all over the place- EEK. I inwardly groaned for her!
As far as I know, tonights episode is St. Louis- they are going stop by stop in chronological order- which means of course, my city is last.
Be watching for me- They will probably show me staring at my hands with a DUH look on my face, cause that is the most televisable thing I did
!!
I knew a girl like Mary Roach in High School- very volatile girl. And I have to say, as a worker in the BEAUTY INDUSTRY ( I do make up and nails) I am offended at that girl going to beauty school- She needs to pluck those eyebrows and do something with that skin DAMN!!! I could give her a makeover and still be fighting her demons!!!
I loved that Regina girl who made it to hollywood- i will be rooting for her- I felt as desperate as she did when I got there- I loved that her husband and daughter were there with her.
Dammit Crystal you arent supposed to be READING when i talk smack about you behind your back!!!!
LL Silly Rabbit.
All in all- It is TV, and its always been about marketability, and I went in knowing that- talent will get you only so far, I'd like to think Jazzy and I had some sparkle to us that got us a little farther than most- we are neither down nor out- just breathing and taking it all in til our next adventure....
And holding hands mentally when it gets hard to watch
- which btw, has nothing to do with feeling like we sucked and werent good enough, and more to do with just getting that close and being told you ARE great but never mind. Its like being handed a key to this amazing life altering room, getting to hold it in your hand, and then having it yanked from you suddenly with an explanation like "Its too small to fit in your pocket"- By the time you get that far, you are emotionally involved! I would have been less devastated to be cut in the first round- no explanations, no excuses.
And dammit it made me feel old, and I am a pert 28
. I dont even have any grey hair ( that i know of I dye it so much
!!)
Holy moly I am RAMBLING.
See what you guys made me do eek.