For me it wasn't steriods, It was something entirely different that changed me for life. Listen carefully, You will understand the importance of experiencing ALL Diane experienced, if you really want to find her. You must go thru the exact same experience Diane did. Let me tell you a story. When I was 15, it was an ordinary day--
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I don't wanna hear your damn story. I couIdn't give a #($@.
I wanna know what happened to her.
Then you'll want to listen to the story.
You want to listen carefully. Sometimes the devil is in the details.
Now, once, when I was 15. . .
. . .it was an ordinary day. . .
... with my ordinary home and my ordinary life.
Something willed me to the edge of the balcony.
I wondered if I had the courage to jump.
I kept waiting for something to stop me. Anything.
But nothing did.
And so I jumped.
Everybody has had that thought at one time, but I did it. Why?
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Because you're a nut case. I wanna know where Diane is!
You're still not listening. Be careful. The answer will slip by you.
I lead a very normal life. I work. I have a home.
But then, one day. . . . .on vacation with my family in California. . . .
There's a little girl in the water!
Hurry! She's drowning!
I jumped in without thinking, just like when I was 15. I nearly drowned
Once again, nothing stopped me.
I didn 't want to save her however. I wanted to be a hero for my daughter.
I needed to hear her say "You're the bravest man in the world.
I love you, Daddy."
In that moment, she thought I was a god.
That would make most people feeI great, but I panicked.
-What does this have to do with Diane? -Diane was an experiment.
Saving a life made me a hero, but did it make me a good person?
I had to prove to myseIf beyond a doubt. . .
. . .that I was AS capable of evil as I was of heroism.
Real evil !!
The worst thing. Or I wouldn't deserve my daughter's love.
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You're *$*#(*$ insane.
You killed Diane.
You are missing the message Jeff ! For me, to kill is not the worst thing that I could imagine.There's more to know.
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Tell me what happened. I won't say a word.
Of course you won't Jeff
You won't because if you do you won't get what you need.
How much have you had to drink Jeff ? There are worse things than death, such
as your life the past three years. There comes a Time Jeff, when it's obvious you
won't give up. You can't give up, your need to know keeps you from living your life.
You are prisoner to your need, your obsession. Now Back to the story Jeff.
My methods needed to be rethought.
And then. . my family gave me a littIe party on my birthday.
-Happy birthday. -Happy birthday, Barney. My wife said
Blow out the candles, Daddy. Shortly afterwards in hit me
There was a shrill scream !
What happened to me, changed me, I saw my daughter on the ground At that point I realized after my daughter fell off the balcony asking
-What happened, Daddy? -and saying, You fell off the balcony.
it dawned on me.
It wasn 't the lure that had to be stronger. I had to be weaker.